Family Moments

Today I had an incredible breakthrough with my Dad.

We talked a lot about my childhood - things that could have been approached better - family issues and personal issues and the idea that my family has a horrible history of always putting other people before themselves. Sure in life it is good to put others first, but you really can't take care of others until you take care of yourself. I learned this the hard way -always trying to please everyone, no matter how badly it hurt me in the process.

It is a hard cycle to break - realizing that you can't and shouldn't always be the hero.

I love days when you can have a really good cry... when you can actually feel something, especially when that something is the pain that makes you realize that everything is going to be ok.